Baby! Where are you?

Wednesday, August 08, 2007


Baby Girl looks wonderful.
We have finally found a suitable treatment for her eczema from a clever skin specialist. We were utterly amazed to see it clear overnight. She now has perfectly normal looking baby skin.
Baby girl has also had a sticky eye for her entire life and this week it stopped being sticky, just like that! So no more green ooze. Yah!
Baby girl has also finally got the hang of sucking and has become a most efficient feeder taking a mere 15 minutes to get the job done. I know this doesn't compare with many babes who can complete a feed in 5 minutes! Up until this week BG has taken 40 minutes to an hour so 15 minutes is dam fine!
I feel so blessed every day to have her in my life.
Everyday there are a hundred smiles. The look of love and delight when she first sees us is at times too much to bear.
I want to bottle every moment because it all passes by so quickly.
My heart melts every time I see her with her doting Dad.
Action man laughs at the amount of photos I take. I don't think a day has gone by where she hasn't been filmed!
On the 31st of July it was a year since her conception in a petri dish. A year, wow. This time last year I was beside myself with frustration and sadness. I had begun to think about facing up to a life without children and I was desperately trying to work out what I was supposed to do with myself in this life. I was the lowest I had ever felt. Everything around me seemed to be in shades of grey. My friend had just lost a baby at 20 weeks gestation. Life seemed very cruel. I didn't know how I was going to get the energy and the hope together to do one more cycle.
But I did and oh how my life has changed.
I hope so much for other women who are struggling to create their family. I really do. The struggle and pain is worth it, honestly :)